Discouragement again…

I’m feeling so discouraged.  I’m really trying to stay positive, but I don’t think I know how.  I’m praying, I’m in the Word…I’m spending time with Bryan, I’m spending time with other people.
I have no idea how we are going to make all the ends meet…if we weren’t getting married, I have no idea how I would make ends meet.  I can’t find a job anywhere…bills are piling up.  I bought some more groceries again today- strawberries, milk, butter, nylons…I’m being really conservative.  It’s so hard not to be discouraged.  It’s hard to get up in the mornings, I don’t want to talk to my family because they get me even more discouraged…I don’t want to eat healthy or exercise…it’s almost that “depressed” feeling I get in winter.  I know its situational, and “this too shall pass,” but it is so disheartening.  I wish I got information back/phone call from DHS so it could help with food stamps…at least that would help us with some things.  I’ve got to stay positive.  It’s so hard, though.

If you think about it, I would truly appreciate prayers.  It’s hard to keep trusting when I can’t see more than an hour ahead.

I’m drinking a mixed greens, parsley, honey, and strawberry smoothie at the moment..pretty good!   Speaking of trying to eat healthy…

~ by rosesinjanuary on July 7, 2009.